:(

I hate being unable to walk, i hate being unable to dance, i hate being unable to go out, all because i have sprained my knee (or fractured it).

It's all because of a minor laziness. Dance shoes cannot get wet, so going to the toilet is a problem because the floors are often wet. So some weeks ago, i saw someone wearing a rubber slipper (those cheap rubber shoes worst than crocs worn by old people or uncles) over her dance shoe when she is in the toilet, and asked her why. She said it's to protect her shoes from getting wet. I thought that was an ingenious idea, so i tried it. But ended up spraining my knee because there is no proper weight distribution. Heels and rubber are not a good combination!

That was the first time i sprained it. In the past, i strained the knee ligament before, years and years ago.

I thought it is okay again after coming back from Australia, but no, i sprained it again. Different place, different reasons but it's probably because it was weakened already. :( It hurts like crazy, and i couldn't walk.. so my parents sent me to A&E for some xray. Have to use the wheelchair when i was in the hospital. That was the first time i was in a wheel chair.

The doctor took an xray and it showed a little piece of bone in the knee, she said it may be a fracture or when i sprained it, a small bit of bone fell out. No wonder it hurts when i straighten my knee.. Unable to determine if it is a fracture or something else, she put me in casts thigh down to ankle, and i have to use crutches to walk.

So that is the incident, and i hate crutches, i hate casts, i hate not being able to go out, i hate to be trapped and be dependent on other people all the time. Seeing the orthopedic tomorrow, he or she better tell me exactly what is going on... and i hope i can be normal soon. I hate missing dance lessons :(

It'll be a miracle if i can even go out on Saturday without crutches, and it'll be an even bigger miracle if i can dance. The chances are like 0.0001%, to be able to dance on Saturday. But i have an important interview on Monday, and i hope i can walk normally to attend it.