Existence and Dreams

I had a surreal experience today thinking about my existence after a period of griping about the pains of growing up and the responsibilities ahead.

And it led me to think about my place in the world in these transient years. What are my dreams and what is my place in society? Time and again I am humbled by how magnificent God is to create me and put me here... There's no getting out either because our souls live for eternity.

Dreams... One of them is to have a lovely country home surrounded by majestic natural scenery done in a country classic & warm, elegant style. I want to own something like this and open it up as a boutique accommodation. It will also be lovely to retire in such a place or have people to manage it. A seaside or mountainside place will be gorgeous, cool fresh air and organic produce!

Another dream is to be going around

Heartless people

People can totally give off the 'heartless' vibe when they respond with prioritizing work & organizational needs above human to human concern.

Instead of directing the reply to the person who wrote it, it was directed to the person who could take over the tasks. Organizational needs are important and one cannot disagree, but human concern expressed towards an employee will go far in anyone trying to gain good leadership skills.

So I cannot help but be turned off by this heartless form of response. Added with superior's 'superior' pride and 'superior' notions of understanding even in the face of clear wrongs, you can see how a person can increasingly dislike present employment conditions!

When I become a leader, I will always put people first. Sincere appreciation instead of book studied management styles without a heart. We don't live to work, we work to live!

Unlike some people who are past their personal prime, who can only find contentment in seeking their career golden after their life long hope is, too, is gone with the wind.

Imperfectly perfect

Lionel Richie was on the talk show some days ago.. And it reminded me all over again of how I like to listen to emo love songs. Something that I had stopped doing for perhaps a year or two... They being replaced by Christian tunes.

Well, I haven't forgotten them and whenever I hear these classic pop ballads that I like, memories of love and emo-ness comes all over again. It is a term that I had been quite foreign to for a while with K... Maybe because it's sunshine most of the time? Or maybe it's just the tremendous amounts of security you feel with the person, that this relationship isn't like before? Or maybe I just want to put away the past and put away these songs that I used to be drunk on. Lol.

Someone once said a while ago of his relationship. That he is with someone who is so imperfect that paired with his imperfection, they are imperfectly perfect. The idea just clicked in my head.

"I'm stuck on you, got this deep feeling in my soul that I can't lose..."

This somehow reminds me of twin again, the emo dude. :) He makes me smile because we've known each other for so long and though we can't be said that we are close... I really appreciate this relationship we've got. Lol.

"Cause you know just what to say and you know just what to do... And I want to tell you so much, I love you." - Lionel Richie Hello.

I wonder how married life will be like. Will it be sunshine as it is now? I don't know. Will I go back to listening to emo sad love songs like I used to? Sometimes it does not reflect the situation or relationship you are in, because it is in a person's personality to want to remember these feelings again.

Longing. Loss. Languish.

It's like watching a sad romantic movie where you know both sides are clearly in love with each other but end up miscommunicating and hurting each other or even leaving each other. it's that kind of sadness. If you know you will cry when you watch such songs, why do you still do ?

Like the song, my endless love.