Wagyu beef burger

Today, Dad made me a wagyu beef burger. Even though there were only 2 for our household of 6, I got 1 of them. He didn't even have any.. And i know he will really love to have a bit of it.

Thanks Dad. Even though it is a simple buttered burger, it tastes better than all the beef burgers I've eaten.

Amazing Amazon and His great love

Two things to be really thankful for today is..

- The surprise of receiving an email from Amazon telling me that one of my books have been shipped first at no extra charge. And then another email saying that the rest of the books have been shipped too. Amazing Amazon! Their success is really inventory management, being the wiki store of books and such, and over-deliver on expectations. :)

- Being greeted by a magical night sky! After a really tough and stressful day at work, I thank God for sustaining me. But just when work overwhelms and clouds my vision, God steps in to comfort me with the sight at my balcony. A very bright round moon lit night! I could just make up the clouds among the pinkish dark hues, and the soft breeze enveloping you and reminding us just how human and small we are in the bigger scheme of things!

Stars! In the skies! They speak of His glory and His promise to Abraham to make his descendants numerous like the stars in the sky and the sand at the sea. How precious are His promises.

How they comfort me in times when I really need help, as work traps me in a concrete building, as I toss and turn over life's decisions, as my heart cries out for help. Only He hears, and only He can deliver me.

Dreaming of the next holiday. And extended happy times with loved ones!

And as always, I thank God for K.

Xoxo,
Principessa

A sense of..

I don't know what it is called but maybe it is apprehension. After all, there are many changes around me and i have never really liked it especially when it comes to work.

One of my colleague is leaving, while the other is on half year in another office. Not that I have been very close to them but.. It's also at a period of my work life that I should grow more. And not stay stagnant.

Growing not in work hours, please! But the last raise was a year ago. I know in order to increase that.. I will have to do more.

Sighs. But is this the right place for me? Whenever I get the sinking feeling to leave and pray really hard about it, the other options don't seem so viable now while.. At the time of uncertainty, something new shows up at my door. It is me.. Do I want to take it on?

Do I want to pursue growth? If I do I cannot take a back seat.. Being the most senior one here at the moment, it is an opportunity indeed. But can I? I need a lot of help from God indeed!

And it's not impossible but God.. I just want a holiday sometimes. Yet we reap what we sow and we have to work hard for your glory. Whatever it is we are doing as a occupation also reflects His mighty glory! Being a Christian in the secular world and shining as a light in a place of darkness is also important.

Personally then, oh God please draw me to you. And may I be able to draw from You, the source of life. The source of love and wisdom.

Seriously. Help. But I need to get out of my comfort zone in order to grow.

Love,
Xoxo principessa

A Deja-vu feeling

I remember not too long ago when I was still an undergrad, walking past the Gateway buildings with my friends just so to get some ice cream at Shaw. Of how I had this feeling of wonder when I saw the water fountain and well heeled office workers going around their routine.

I remember thinking of how it will be like when I get into the working world. How would it be like? How will I be like?

How strange, what a foreign world it was to me!

And then I remembered how I had to compose myself before the important interview that I was truly excited about. A job that I never thought I'll be in but heck, i'll try anyway! By God's grace, that's how I ended up here.

Sitting at the steps of the very place I was at thinking those thoughts above, some years ago. And waiting for my taxi after a long day at work to bring me back home.

Where a warm home cooked dinner awaits.

Xoxo,
Principessa

Breathe

Hello diary,

Writing this as I go towards the direction of a church, jotting down my thoughts on mobile. There's so many things to sort out, I think writing helps.

Just randomly:

On S P A C E, it is a mystery even to myself. How much is needed? Is it abnormal? At work, solo reflective or zoning out lunches are a necessity to keep the stresses in check. But it is also the freedom of being able to do whatever you want, budget place time sequence. Similarly this pervades personal life as sometimes.. Just going with your agenda is a luxurious thought, especially on weekends when you have a whole day free.

On G O D, I nearly wanted to stay at home and bum around.. Imagining a nice petite cup of passionfruit latte from coffeebean and a small blueberry muffin. Hmm cinnamon or banana walnut will do too. Petite, si'l vous plait! Did that stem from laziness, or lack of spiritual leaning/need, poor relationship with God, or what?

Don't know.. But I can only think about breathing. No responsibility.

Is a holiday needed? Another sign that I need an escape. If only I am not afraid of breathing in water, then I can imagine myself swimming like a mermaid among nemos and colorful fishes.

The mystery of the deep sea scares me still, but what an amazing surreal world, so mysterious and out of reach that when you actually get in there, i don't know if I'll be over excited and start breathing in and out of my nose again. Easily a suicide case because we have to use our mouths not our noses!

On M A T E R I A L S, I just bought a $135 bag made of PV and calf leather handled. Ouch! I like it because it is pink purple.. And the interesting quilt like texture. But the size is a bit too large to handle. Buyer's regret? Don't know.. But it'll work well with dull clothes.

Ok got to go and meet Anna.

Xoxo

The journey home

Here I am sitting in the taxi called at 8.30pm winding down after a long day at work. My professor from uni left a comment on my Facebook on how he has always envisioned me to be the young jet setting executive and how nice and happy he is for me. Seeing that makes me feel that I am so blessed to be in a company like this..

Global, important, in people's daily lives. A team and senior management that supports us to grow if we want it hard enough. Jet setting lifestyle is a bit of a stretch because frankly I don't travel so much.. In my 1.75 years here I have only visited Asia three times and US once for work. So it is really desk bound most of the time, managing client and rep relations, being pedantic and meticulous in planning, accuracy and also in reporting, coming up with proposals and ideas, keeping up to date because of the speed we move..being quick thinking, resourceful and independent while also being a good team mate. We do go beyond borders and that applies from resource sharing to client management and even meeting our sales targets. You meet people from different cultures, and just the borderless nature of my job makes me excited.

This above is not a pitch for my job but a summary of what I think. And how much more I need to learn and reach up to these expectations.

Anyway enough about work cos I am talking even when I am off! The original purpose was to hot down what I just thought seeing the scenic condo around kallang river. I thunk for my nature even if I do grow to afford it, will I choose a penthouse condo instead of a landed house? Haha I don't know but high rise living has been a familiar life since so long ago. Enough day dreaming, reaching home soon. Yay! Going to appreciate my mum's healthy loving dinner.

a strange dream - waterpark

i had a strange dream this morning, even in my bits of sickness. did the fever burn my head? but it sure stung.

in my dream, he brought me to a water park. he seems to have been there once before and made some acquaintance, and they were all females. 

he tried to hold my hand and I tried to be close whenever some girls talk to him. 

but somehow we lost each other in the park. there were many rides and because we had no mobile with us I tried searching for him but in vain. In my mind he probably went to find a ride, but I am always so scared I didn't dare to take any. is that why he left? 


i queued for one but don't dare to take it when it was my turn. the ride was too curvy and too steep, what if the landing is not proper? the curve was too twisting and steep.

I kept worrying about these safety issues that I didn't take any. Still looking but he is nowhere in sight. strange possibilities came into my mind, where is he?