A sense of..

I don't know what it is called but maybe it is apprehension. After all, there are many changes around me and i have never really liked it especially when it comes to work.

One of my colleague is leaving, while the other is on half year in another office. Not that I have been very close to them but.. It's also at a period of my work life that I should grow more. And not stay stagnant.

Growing not in work hours, please! But the last raise was a year ago. I know in order to increase that.. I will have to do more.

Sighs. But is this the right place for me? Whenever I get the sinking feeling to leave and pray really hard about it, the other options don't seem so viable now while.. At the time of uncertainty, something new shows up at my door. It is me.. Do I want to take it on?

Do I want to pursue growth? If I do I cannot take a back seat.. Being the most senior one here at the moment, it is an opportunity indeed. But can I? I need a lot of help from God indeed!

And it's not impossible but God.. I just want a holiday sometimes. Yet we reap what we sow and we have to work hard for your glory. Whatever it is we are doing as a occupation also reflects His mighty glory! Being a Christian in the secular world and shining as a light in a place of darkness is also important.

Personally then, oh God please draw me to you. And may I be able to draw from You, the source of life. The source of love and wisdom.

Seriously. Help. But I need to get out of my comfort zone in order to grow.

Love,
Xoxo principessa