My dreams

I realise something about myself, i really write/blog a lot more when i'm writing a school assignment. Currently, it's the report for my Catchment Processes module examining the potential impacts of human recreational activities on tropical catchments, using fieldwork results from the MacRitchie reservoir.

As i am taking a break from writing, a song came to me. It always happens like that, strings of lyrics and music that i don't think have existed before will come to me all of a sudden. I don't know why but i kind of having these inspirations here and there, i think they are inspired by the music i listen to. Except that they are not the same, just similar maybe in the intensity of the emotions.

I feel the sudden rush of desire to learn music, to learn the piano, to read musical notes and play them beautifully by myself. Similarly, that is how i feel about dancing.. not latin or ballroom, but classical dance. Like the ballet. I can't exactly help feeling like this, but it's so strong.

And sometimes yes, i do i must admit wish that i have been born in a wealthy family so that i can actually pursue these interests without worrying about work, about how to support myself and my parents. Simply living to learn the things i am interested in, to see the world and travel, travel and write down all my thoughts and emotions, or maybe compose music, perform music and dance.

Is that a contribution to the world? Maybe in my country it is not, to any practical person they'll think i'm crazy. That's why sometimes i do wish i have been born in the past, in an aristocratic family maybe. Why? Because ladies don't work then. But it's also not because i don't like to work, i like to work, i like to feel that personal achievement, but i detest the feeling of necessary work when people in the rat race, run because they have to not because they want to.

Moi, i like to work because i want to, because i want to contribute. Maybe i should be born as a European, those eccentric types.. ha ha ha. But yes, i am very proud of being Asian. I am proud of Singapore and i appreciate the pragmatism. But sometimes, i wish that i can do as i like, comme je veux.

So very frankly, my wish is to contribute through a job i like, yet also have time to learn music and the piano and the ballet and travel. How do you ever get to do that???

1) Hope for a secret inheritance a la Once upon a december style.
2) Marry someone who's rich enough for you to live without needing to have a job to support those activities
3) Win a million $$ lottery, or more
4) Be super brilliant to come up with more ideas and achieve them

love, principessa