2010

Learn to drive
Exercise at least twice a week
Use more sunscreen

Being serious about responsibility
especially when it is towards people
Managing my finances properly

Living life with a purpose
Living with no regrets. We only live once
Dare to dream and work towards it

Love and love more.
Be bold, be less afraid because..love will pass us by if we are too afraid to catch it.
(It's too late by Carole King)

Dedicate my time to knowing God, reading His Word and growing spiritually
Using the gifts He has given to me in the Children's ministry
Seriously consider helping in the Youth ministry

And there, this is my short list of resolutions.

xoxo, principessa

Last Day of 2009

And I feel..thankful and blessed. 2009 is a significant milestone in my life - 23 year old. Can we always stay 23? You're kind of grown comfortably as a young adult, feeling the responsibilities of life slowly increasing on you, making your own decisions, and becoming more serious about the future yet still being able to have fun and still able to shrug off irresponsible & irrational moments as part of youth folly.

The last day(s) of the year have been spent most wonderfully. Being with the people I love. Swimming in the sea for the first time and enjoying it with no fear. Blissful hammock moments.

Bintan 2009

I'm not so inspired to write something that closes or start a new year yet. I'm still so dazed!

2009:

• School ended and its hello to working life
• The old chapter comes to a complete closure.
• Irresponsible and irrational moments
  
• Friends (esp old friends) are so precious!
  
• And a new chapter begins. Thank You God.
  

Happy New Year in a while!

xoxo, principessa

the pieces of my heart..they are still missing you.

it is no secret that we all have a secret diary somewhere, be it written or kept in a floating box of memories within us...

Oui, j'ai ce livre. Et dans le livre it says "the pieces of my heart..they are still missing you".

i was sick last night, felt so terrible i couldn't decide whether throwing up is a better option or suffering in silence ... i couldn't decide if that was worst.. or the sinking feeling of...

when all you dream about when u close your eyes and even when u open them.. is...? it plagues me to no end, even when... like a dying orchid..

or is it a case of people never being fully satisfied with what they have?

i suspect it is not just the toxins in my stomach gnawing at me..

that's why they say, we have to live for the present and the future because the past... can never be rewind agan.

xoxo, principessa
(J.P, if u're going to diagnose me again as being troubled, u.won't.be.spared. ;) )

Sick :(

I don't know what happened but i felt so sick last night - is it food poisoning? :( But thinking back of what i've eaten the whole day, it is not that surprising because the food mix just doesn't go well with each other. Or i'll blame the Subway sandwich from White Sands, maybe that food attendent didn't wash his hands.. Urks.

- Roti Prata
- Green Tea Skinny Latte
- Starbucks choc chip cookie - i'm never ever going to eat this again. It's huge full of sugar and butter

- Prawn Mee
- Barley

- Subway Oven Roasted Chicken Breast Sandwich w Wheat Bread

Dum Dammm. The cookie has 400 calories! Even a Subway cookie is only half of that.

I'll attempt to count the calories I ate yesterday, I am sure it is frighteningly high.
- 424 sandwich
- 400 cookie
- 350-400 Prata
- 90 latte
- 250 noodles
- 2o barley

Total: 1584 --- I should aim for 1300 next time with a desk-bound job. Moreover, there is too much sugar, fat and sodium in what I ate.

Eewk, now i know why i feel so sick. :(

Irresistible

I know I know, i haven't been writing. Always tired after work and out during the weekends..but anyhows, here's a picture taken by the inner camera of my Viewty. Last Saturday was spent accompanying my bf to get his new phone. :)

I'll never find someone like you

Right now, this song can't escape my head and i keep listening, keep listening to it on repeats.


Keith Martin - Never Find Someone Like You (Official Music Video) - The most popular videos are here

How do you feel so much passion and love for someone enough to say "i'll never find someone like you"? I don't know..but such a moment is so rare.

All I have is just my heart and my feelings i give to you
that's all i can do to keep you forever

Black singers are really good at such songs that sweeps you off your feet with the intensity of their songs. My favoured songs like 'End of the road', 'We're in this love together' and all are sung by blacks. I don't mean this term negatively, but it is really a compliment.

I wonder, in a fast paced cosmopolitan tropical asian country like Singapore, are we able to live life this passionately? Without a care in the world sometimes, a job is just a job if you don't like it you leave. *American parents advise their children to leave if the job doesn't suit them vs Asian parents ask u to bear it n tolerate* Why can't we live life? Why can't we really live it? Enjoy it, slow down its pace..i don't mean drunken revelry sort of 'living it up' but.. i don't know...

don't go to work, sit in the fields, face the mountains and have a picnic. play some music and learn an instrument and work ends at 5pm sharp. whatever doesn't get done is left to the next day. the way of life that everyone expects and live. if society thinks homogeneously about this, we get a life! but if thinking is diff and some works harder than the rest... the ones who live life gets branded as a slacker and inefficient and unmotivated worker.

a colleague of mine says that i need more motivation, need more efficiency, need to be more considerate of shared resources. i agree with the latter two because to obtain number 2 i have to sacrifice number 3 if it slows me down. but number 1? i cannot agree to it. i'm already trying my best and i am motivated, but i haven't reached to their standards of efficiency, what can i do abt it?

criticize the work but never the intention. yet i can't dislike her because if that is what she feels is the truth, i rather she says it than hide it. and if she genuinely feel it will affect my performance , if she says it it helps me. but if it is a case of overhigh stds, then i say i do not appreciate it unless it is timely.... i dont think my work is bad because i can be a perfectionist but i m just slower in producing it.

I dreamt this morning of having a dog, maybe he is not mine but he'll be my best doggy friend. i dreamt of saying "i love you, i love you so much!" to him and hugging him to bits. And he will wag his tail happily and love me back, grinning all the time with his furry golden coat. he's very much like a golden retriever, happy and jolly and very handsome by dog's standards.

Do you think the reason why we like pets is because they will never judge you? I am talking about dogs and cats and maybe the occassional horse *if you can afford it*. They are always loyal *dogs* and even if you are the baddest person on earth, they are always faithful. Even if you are fat, ugly, suck at work, have no friends or is penniless, they will still love you.

xoxo,
principessa

PS: I met N a few nights ago on the streets and immediately i thought of the song "Look Away".

The ugly truth

On my flight back from bangkok, i watched The Ugly Truth. Such films are quite common but very much in demand to pass your time.. what really strikes me is how ugly the truth is.

he says, u don't have to do anything. just get on the treadmill and learn to **** a good **. whateverrr. i hate it, i hate it, i hate it.

i hate how that works. hate it hate it hate it. so what if i can or cannot be that?

alot is always abt satisfying the points that attract him, less is on how he does xxx to attract u. or is it really?

if we compare looks + body with money, maybe that is the female and male parallel of what a DESIRED is like.

so how? if you can't look like xxs, or have some issues, then the level of desirability falls?


i hate it. maybe it's the best reason to be single. accountable to no one but yourself. So if someone have got an issue with you, you can safely show him to........buzz off. and if some hard physical work converts to an advantage, there will be a queue of the not-so-wanted-because-she-is-too-fabulous-for-u.

single works best. maybe.. .. ..

xoxo,
hate the male gaze