Happy days some time ago :)

I have been with Nopp for so long, slightly more than 5 years to be exact since i first got to know him but now that we've separated because of some reasons (mostly because of me not being able to accept some of his qualities, and him not being able to make me my happiest because of our character differences, and certain values in a relationship.

HOWEVER, we are still very close and we still hold each other very dearly in our hearts. :) We have decided to date other people, explore life on our own for this period of time (indefinite) and try to grow our strengths.

These pictures are taken during Chinese New Year.

As for what is happening in my life now, it is really like a roller coaster. I can't say much because this blog is not so private and only my close friends may get an inkling of it. At 22, we're likely to be at the craziest times of our life right? When sometimes you make decisions that you will never make when you are 32, or 42 or 18. And you probably will make many mistakes at this time because you are young, probably foolish and silly like me, and you just like adventures. How true can these experiences be?

I feel like a bird that have flown out of a very beautiful, luxurious cage that have been lovingly cared for. Never knowing who she is going to meet, what she is going to do, but meeting life head-on. Sometimes very foolishly, sometimes smart, but always quite passionately. Yet we all hope that we don't make serious mistakes that are irrevocable. No, please guide me God.

I am graduating very soon and yet i have been half hearted in my search for a career, half hearted in school work because it is near the end, but yet i know i will miss this kind of life very much. Sometimes i am scared because i still feel relaxed yet urgent when i look at piling school work. It's like, i can't wait to get away from all these and go on a nice long learning holiday to experience more things. But sometimes i feel stiffled by parents, they will surely not let me go as i wish! And if i ever suggest going to a relatively safe destination alone, they will probably think i am mad? I am more than 21 yet i feel obliged to not worry them, ahhh.

And remember my crazy dream in life to visit a foreign place and marry a foreign man? And live in a beautiful house with a ballroom and floor to ceiling french windows and candeliers and mirrors? And have a lovely walk-in wardrobe the size of a bedroom where i can twirl around and dream in my own exclusive world? And a magnificiently inviting 4 poster canopy bed facing the sea?

Ha, you may think i am crazy. Yes i am, a la folie!! My reality is crazy too. And nobody gets such dreams when they can make them right? Yea, i think so too. But who can help dreaming?

When you're young, the world is your stage and your playground. But only for these short, transient years! Catch them when you can, yes baby, catch it now.

xoxo, principessa