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Today's a bad day when i have the feeling that i really hate my job because it is all overwhelming me, causing me to doubt myself, causing me to stress myself and unable to be happy or take my mind off it.

I admit that I can be quite blur and I can be forgetful, and slower to comprehend when some things are so new, or people don't make themselves clear.

When people ask, I'll say that all is good. Which is true sometimes, sometimes i feel accomplished, i feel like I did things correctly that day. But some days I don't. Like today. Boss called me early in the morning to ask me about some things (he is often overseas on work trips) and at first i couldn't remember what he was talking about... I just couldn't with so many things going on with different clients until after an extremely long pause... at last, i took out my stack of X client notes and remembered.

"I really need you to comprehend, it is your accounts. You have to handle it." X many times.

ANYWAY, there is no use complaining. Sometimes people are just on different wavelengths. And some people, like me, cannot think properly when I am really stressed.

Have to stop thinking like that, it's just a job not my life. I shouldn't let it affect my self-esteem and personal life. There ARE more things to life than this. But I have to pray for wisdom and a earnest heart to work for God.

PS: There are so many bdays going on I'm growing weary of it. 6 friends + 1 grandma birthday. I am afraid of September now..

PPS: I am clueless about what it is now.

xoxo, principessa